Hi,
I’m not really expecting anything back but I need somewhere to vent and this is one of the only places I feel it is safe to do so.
I’m kathryn and I’m turning 29 in a few weeks. I’ve been a carer since I was 13 for my mum and since then I’ve looked after her as well as raising my two siblings. My younger brother is 27 now and my sister just turned 22. He moved out a couple of years ago so it’s just the three of us at home, my sister works although she currently is from home and she’s become my only friend. I didn’t have many because I had so many responsibilities growing up but now I have no one. I feel so alone and overwhelmed. Mum constantly rejects social services help because she struggled with us and they often threatened to place us into care. We have no other family and I do as much as I can because I don’t want my sister to end up like me.
My own mental health has plummeted to the point I can’t sleep and when I wake up I want to cry because I’m still here. I had to stop taking my sertraline because I have got acid reflux and it was making it worse. I’m terrified to go to the doctors in case it’s something worse although he says it is just that. I have horrendous health anxiety because of caring for someone with so many ailments and went to a+e with suspected heart attack 2 years ago. It was just a panic attack. I’m sorry for the rambling post it’s just I feel so lost and alone and I don’t know what to do. Even just typing this has helped relieve a little of the pressure
I’m not really expecting anything back but I need somewhere to vent and this is one of the only places I feel it is safe to do so.
I’m kathryn and I’m turning 29 in a few weeks. I’ve been a carer since I was 13 for my mum and since then I’ve looked after her as well as raising my two siblings. My younger brother is 27 now and my sister just turned 22. He moved out a couple of years ago so it’s just the three of us at home, my sister works although she currently is from home and she’s become my only friend. I didn’t have many because I had so many responsibilities growing up but now I have no one. I feel so alone and overwhelmed. Mum constantly rejects social services help because she struggled with us and they often threatened to place us into care. We have no other family and I do as much as I can because I don’t want my sister to end up like me.
My own mental health has plummeted to the point I can’t sleep and when I wake up I want to cry because I’m still here. I had to stop taking my sertraline because I have got acid reflux and it was making it worse. I’m terrified to go to the doctors in case it’s something worse although he says it is just that. I have horrendous health anxiety because of caring for someone with so many ailments and went to a+e with suspected heart attack 2 years ago. It was just a panic attack. I’m sorry for the rambling post it’s just I feel so lost and alone and I don’t know what to do. Even just typing this has helped relieve a little of the pressure