Hi everyone,
Its been a while since i've been here but im struggling again, my friend suggested i come here and talk.
I look after my nan, im her full-time carer, i live with her monday-friday and i try to go home at weekends.
She has battled 2 different cancers and come out the other side, however there is always that scare. She has Chrones Disease, her kidneys are failing and multiple other smaller things.
The reason im strugging and feeling guilty is because i went out with a friend today. I havent seen any of my friends in months because she doesnt like it, but when i came home she was so angry that i'd been out. I hadn't been out all day and id checked in numerous times. I understand she's having troubles of her own but im not a verbal punching bag either.
Most nights im too terrified to go to sleep until the early hours because she threatens suicide if she isnt happy. I've tried talking to her and offered to get her some mental health help and i get a right ear bashing for even suggesting it.
Im slowly giving up here and with another lockdown on the way i don't get to go home and see my family, so im here for the next month.
I guess i just need to vent or get some adivce, a bit of both would be nice though.
Its been a while since i've been here but im struggling again, my friend suggested i come here and talk.
I look after my nan, im her full-time carer, i live with her monday-friday and i try to go home at weekends.
She has battled 2 different cancers and come out the other side, however there is always that scare. She has Chrones Disease, her kidneys are failing and multiple other smaller things.
The reason im strugging and feeling guilty is because i went out with a friend today. I havent seen any of my friends in months because she doesnt like it, but when i came home she was so angry that i'd been out. I hadn't been out all day and id checked in numerous times. I understand she's having troubles of her own but im not a verbal punching bag either.
Most nights im too terrified to go to sleep until the early hours because she threatens suicide if she isnt happy. I've tried talking to her and offered to get her some mental health help and i get a right ear bashing for even suggesting it.
Im slowly giving up here and with another lockdown on the way i don't get to go home and see my family, so im here for the next month.
I guess i just need to vent or get some adivce, a bit of both would be nice though.