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Mon Apr 29, 2013 1:13 am
Hi all. Things got really really bad today. I woke to find my mum saying that her head is being "sucked in". She thinks that she has a parasite or something that is putting holes in her head and sucking it in. She also had one of her physical syntoms which is where her mouth moves a lot. She covers her face when this happens.
One of the issues is that my brother has his girlfriend over quite a bit. She does not want to do these things infront of her so tries to hide it. Today it got so bad that she thought everyone (Including me) were planning to get her arrested. She thought we were all in on some plan. She even planned on what to say. She thought a van outside was some listening station and told me she was thinking of telling them she knew what they were doing.
What really worries me is that she planned on handing herself into the police. She has NO idea what for but because of her CPN she thinks that they think she has done something but cant remember what. She is convinced that an investigation is underway and they are gathering evidence.
Everything that is happening has the root cause of her CPN and that damn lady who reported her. Because her CPN did not say why she was asking these questions she now has only her imagination to fill in the gaps.
But, today we get a letter. Her CPN has booked a holiday to see her family for an unknown amount of time. This comes on the day that they are in the news (Link to story) about how poor they are. She is now with the "Crisis" team. I was going to call them today as it got to a point where I could not take it anymore and nor could she. I got her to bed and she slept for 3 hours (Which is great for her) and then decided to see what I could do for her. We watched a movie (Which is a good thing. It shows she is thinking good) and then watched some Ab Fab which she loves. She is now in a good state of mind (For this month anyway) and I hope it continues.
Because she has no CPN now and her CPN has just LEFT her... She now thinks that NO ONE wants her. She thinks her CPN hates her or is gathering evidence on her to get her locked away.And in some ways she is right. She has no CPN. The CPN never came anyway, when she did she stayed for 20mins (Not the 1-2hs) and then plays mind games with my mum. She should know not to do this.
I think today is the worst I have seen her since she last took an overdose and thought she was invisible. I know its bad when I feel I cant hold in my emotions. I never want to call her CPN/Crisis teams as they may take her away forever. But today I thought it was best for her. I am glad "now" that I did not though.
@crocus
The children are my children (girl and boy) from a failed relationship. Its a messy situation that I hate talking about. They have no idea what she is like and nothing that I know of effects them. My Daughter has Asperger syndrome. My ex knows quite a bit about my mum but she fails to understand the extent of it all (Which I guess is a good thing in some ways). I talk to my ex a lot and do talk about my mum. She does not see my mum as a risk to her or the children... Believe me, if I thought she was I would put things in place.
My sister has her own problems. She does not really understand how psychosis works. She thinks a lot of the things are just my mum being "silly". I think at times she causes a lot of the problems as my mum remembers stuff she says and then cries about it later.
My Brother is great. He lives here and tries his best. He is much calmer than I am but he spends much less time with my mum than I do. I do not mind him doing this as he is the baby of the family and I REALLY want him to not have to deal with all of this. I want him to have a better life.
I have my fingers crossed that things get better. I hope to get some sleep now and her to be better or the same as she is now.
One of the issues is that my brother has his girlfriend over quite a bit. She does not want to do these things infront of her so tries to hide it. Today it got so bad that she thought everyone (Including me) were planning to get her arrested. She thought we were all in on some plan. She even planned on what to say. She thought a van outside was some listening station and told me she was thinking of telling them she knew what they were doing.
What really worries me is that she planned on handing herself into the police. She has NO idea what for but because of her CPN she thinks that they think she has done something but cant remember what. She is convinced that an investigation is underway and they are gathering evidence.
Everything that is happening has the root cause of her CPN and that damn lady who reported her. Because her CPN did not say why she was asking these questions she now has only her imagination to fill in the gaps.
But, today we get a letter. Her CPN has booked a holiday to see her family for an unknown amount of time. This comes on the day that they are in the news (Link to story) about how poor they are. She is now with the "Crisis" team. I was going to call them today as it got to a point where I could not take it anymore and nor could she. I got her to bed and she slept for 3 hours (Which is great for her) and then decided to see what I could do for her. We watched a movie (Which is a good thing. It shows she is thinking good) and then watched some Ab Fab which she loves. She is now in a good state of mind (For this month anyway) and I hope it continues.
Because she has no CPN now and her CPN has just LEFT her... She now thinks that NO ONE wants her. She thinks her CPN hates her or is gathering evidence on her to get her locked away.And in some ways she is right. She has no CPN. The CPN never came anyway, when she did she stayed for 20mins (Not the 1-2hs) and then plays mind games with my mum. She should know not to do this.
I think today is the worst I have seen her since she last took an overdose and thought she was invisible. I know its bad when I feel I cant hold in my emotions. I never want to call her CPN/Crisis teams as they may take her away forever. But today I thought it was best for her. I am glad "now" that I did not though.
@crocus
The children are my children (girl and boy) from a failed relationship. Its a messy situation that I hate talking about. They have no idea what she is like and nothing that I know of effects them. My Daughter has Asperger syndrome. My ex knows quite a bit about my mum but she fails to understand the extent of it all (Which I guess is a good thing in some ways). I talk to my ex a lot and do talk about my mum. She does not see my mum as a risk to her or the children... Believe me, if I thought she was I would put things in place.
My sister has her own problems. She does not really understand how psychosis works. She thinks a lot of the things are just my mum being "silly". I think at times she causes a lot of the problems as my mum remembers stuff she says and then cries about it later.
My Brother is great. He lives here and tries his best. He is much calmer than I am but he spends much less time with my mum than I do. I do not mind him doing this as he is the baby of the family and I REALLY want him to not have to deal with all of this. I want him to have a better life.
I have my fingers crossed that things get better. I hope to get some sleep now and her to be better or the same as she is now.
