Its minds matter he was told to contact. They are ringing him on wednesday. He will be going for cbt.
Things were really bad around new year, he ended up in hospital twice and nearly a 3rd time. After he started all his medication things started to get better. Now they are weaning him off one tablet things seem to be getting worse again.
I'm not sure if I see myself as a carer. I'm sorting his meds, making sure he has bits to eat and drink, trying to take him out so he isnt stuck in the house day in day out.
I feel resentful about my job because I loved it. I worked at a doggy daycare. I loved the dogs and made some really good friends. It was the boss, she was addicted to pain killers. She was taking full packets at a time. Then having seizures. One of the last times I had to do CPR on her she had stopped breathing. Baring in mind there was usually 40+ dogs and just me, my son and her. I ended up running the place. I couldn't cope in the end because even after the CPR she carried on doing it. Once she broke her wrist, smashed her cheek bone to bits and had bleeds on her brain. I just couldn't handle it. So yes I feel resentful but towards her for putting me in this position.
My son brings money in, my daughter is volunteering at a friends dog daycare, her boyfriend lives with us and he brings money in. I volunteer at my friends daycare to, she was one of my customers and she knew all what was going on and wanted me to work for her, but it hasn't took off quit as well as we had hoped.
Right now I'm worried sick every morning, dreading the day ahead, I feel exhausted, just feel like crying. The home team from the mental health come yesterday and asked me how I'm coping so I told them and they offered me help. Plus they are coming wednesday with someone who knows about benefits and what help money wise we can get. At the minute my partners boss is being fantastic, he came out to see him and was very understanding.