Thank you all for your kind words. They meant, and mean, a lot to me, and helped more than you could ever guess.
I'm still here, now and then, looking. After ten years I suppose caring is just a part of me now. I hope it always is. The roller coaster ride might be over but I still hold my ticket, and my respect for and pride in those who take the ride will never diminish.
Hugs to all.