Sun Nov 16, 2008 10:11 am
I thought it was time I posted an update.
Firstly I would like to thank those who replied, your kind words were most comforting.
Well I have stopped crying now although there times when it is difficult to control my emotions. I was always taught that if a man cried he was a wimp but I now see things differently, there is only so much anyone can take.
I am still missing Mum terribly, I have been feeling very depressed and lonely with only my elderly cat for company. Freinds and relatives don't call round or phone so often now, I guess they think I am getting over my loss. I am finding it difficult to adjust as I miss the regular routine of caring for Mum, at times I feel so lost. My doctor has signed me on the sick for a few weeks and wants to keep an eye on me as the stress is beginning to cause me a few problems.
Now things are about to get a whole lot worse. I live in a privately rented two bedroomed bungalow, Mum and I were joint tenants and each received housing benefit which covered the full rent. Now that Mum has gone the council will not pay me the full amount, I have to make up the difference out of my weekly benefit. They say that as I am on my own I must now look for a cheaper, one bedroomed, property. On top of that my Landlady has decided to put the rent up by 20% from January 1st. As well as grieving for the loss of my Mum who I cared for for so long, I now have the threat of homlessness hanging over my head. The added stress in unbearable. This is my home and was my Mum's home, the churchyard where she is burried is close by. I now dread the future even more, finding suitable accomodation is going to be nigh on impossible. Why is bureaucracy so unsympathetic and uncaring?
Coping with berievement can be very difficult. Losing a loved one is like suddenly going on a long journey leaving them behind, each day you get further and futher away from them knowing that you cannot go back, you will never see them again.
AlexR
Firstly I would like to thank those who replied, your kind words were most comforting.
Well I have stopped crying now although there times when it is difficult to control my emotions. I was always taught that if a man cried he was a wimp but I now see things differently, there is only so much anyone can take.
I am still missing Mum terribly, I have been feeling very depressed and lonely with only my elderly cat for company. Freinds and relatives don't call round or phone so often now, I guess they think I am getting over my loss. I am finding it difficult to adjust as I miss the regular routine of caring for Mum, at times I feel so lost. My doctor has signed me on the sick for a few weeks and wants to keep an eye on me as the stress is beginning to cause me a few problems.
Now things are about to get a whole lot worse. I live in a privately rented two bedroomed bungalow, Mum and I were joint tenants and each received housing benefit which covered the full rent. Now that Mum has gone the council will not pay me the full amount, I have to make up the difference out of my weekly benefit. They say that as I am on my own I must now look for a cheaper, one bedroomed, property. On top of that my Landlady has decided to put the rent up by 20% from January 1st. As well as grieving for the loss of my Mum who I cared for for so long, I now have the threat of homlessness hanging over my head. The added stress in unbearable. This is my home and was my Mum's home, the churchyard where she is burried is close by. I now dread the future even more, finding suitable accomodation is going to be nigh on impossible. Why is bureaucracy so unsympathetic and uncaring?
Coping with berievement can be very difficult. Losing a loved one is like suddenly going on a long journey leaving them behind, each day you get further and futher away from them knowing that you cannot go back, you will never see them again.
AlexR
