It's been a while since I last posted. I am now a 'former carer'.
My Gran passed away yesterday afternoon. I got there 5 minutes too late. She had other family members with her when she passed and I'm told she just calmly slipped away. I am very grateful for that.
Now, I have to face the horrible, inevitable bit where I need to learn how to stop being a carer- it's going to hit home this afternoon, at the usual time I would go to the nursing home, to find that I am no longer needed there... and never will be again.
I'm sad to say that my last visit, the day before she passed, was not one of our best encounters. She was very agitated and I'd had a bad day at work- I need to remember that one day, out of all of those I spent with her, doesn't mark the tone of our entire relationship. I will get there
MND is a disgusting disease and I will loathe it until my very last breath.
To all of you on this forum (especially BB, who provided such incredible advice and support), thank you so much for answering my various queries over the last year. You're all incredible people, with the biggest of hearts <3
xx
My Gran passed away yesterday afternoon. I got there 5 minutes too late. She had other family members with her when she passed and I'm told she just calmly slipped away. I am very grateful for that.
Now, I have to face the horrible, inevitable bit where I need to learn how to stop being a carer- it's going to hit home this afternoon, at the usual time I would go to the nursing home, to find that I am no longer needed there... and never will be again.
I'm sad to say that my last visit, the day before she passed, was not one of our best encounters. She was very agitated and I'd had a bad day at work- I need to remember that one day, out of all of those I spent with her, doesn't mark the tone of our entire relationship. I will get there

MND is a disgusting disease and I will loathe it until my very last breath.
To all of you on this forum (especially BB, who provided such incredible advice and support), thank you so much for answering my various queries over the last year. You're all incredible people, with the biggest of hearts <3
xx