Thank you for posting,both of you.
I am feeling very emotional at the moment, otherwise I may not have written that. It will be one year on 25th this month. We then have to get through our other son's birthday at the beginning of August, (the day before we had the funeral last year).Ben has to cope with a lot in life as it is,(Sandysea, my other son has Downs Syndrome and type 1 diabetes), and we have decided that we have to give him a good birthday, we cannot be sad forever more on that date. We have just found a new multiscreen cinema opened 30 miles away, so will have no family memories, we are going to take him there, and then out for a meal. (and it will be a total surprise for him).
I have found over the last few weeks, since my new grandson has been born, that people are saying," he will fill the hole in your heart."It hurts when people say that,as he will never fill that hole. He brings joy and love, but he has his OWN place in my heart. I try to remember that people cannot understand unless they have been through it, and I hope that they never have to. It is a heartbreak that no bereaved parent would not wish on their worst enemy.