Sarah
You are one of the most dedicated and loving carers on here. You have a huge heart and much love to give.
Just now you are exhausted and isolated but this can , and will change.
You mention paid Carers. When they come in do you make sure that you rest or use the time for yourself? They are there to help you by looking after Gran and freeing you up
Do they perhaps need to come in more often?
Don't despair, there are solutions, we just need to find them
Xx
MrsA
Ps I met my husband at 35, married at 36 and had my first at 37. 32 is nothing, you have a life ahead of you xxx