I don't quite know how to start to tell this story. Many of you know that my son suffers with schizophrenia and has tried to take his own life many times. It's a wonder that his body still works, but no significant damage seems to have been done.
This weekend was the last straw! I understand that he has a rough time; he hears voices continually, and they are saying some horrid things that my poor son doesn't want to hear. So it must be impossible for him. Having said that, he has his family's support, and I am always on call for him. We love him dearly, even though his illness causes us all heartache.
Unfortunately, he doesn't get along well with my partner, which doesn't help my life to be particularly easy. So, as my partner was away this weekend, he stayed overnight on the Friday. He was very down, much more than normal, and didn't want to talk. I thought no more of it and he finished the weekend at his Father's.
Later his father phoned me up to say that Luke had taken some mercury. MERCURY??? we thought he was making it up, after all, where would he have got it from? Even so, I was worried and phoned the Unit. He admitted it, and said that he had got it from our shed. An old thermometre? I don't know. This is after last time, when he took MY tablets and took them all.
I love him so much, but feel that I just can't trust him any more and feel that he's abused my love, support and everything else my partner and I do for him. The worse thing is that my partner has now told him that he's not welcome around here any more. Luckily at A&E they told him that the way he took it (drinking) means it would go straight through him. I'm not sure if I entirely believe that.
My head is a mess and don't know what to think or do. Do I leave him alone? Get in touch?....I've spoken to staff and told them that I have had enough of it all.
They've swapped his medication around so much, he must have tried everything in the book, and has had around five different doctors so far.
Thanks for reading - I just feel so hopeless and useless - all my caring hasn't done a thing for my son and obviously means nothing to him.
This weekend was the last straw! I understand that he has a rough time; he hears voices continually, and they are saying some horrid things that my poor son doesn't want to hear. So it must be impossible for him. Having said that, he has his family's support, and I am always on call for him. We love him dearly, even though his illness causes us all heartache.
Unfortunately, he doesn't get along well with my partner, which doesn't help my life to be particularly easy. So, as my partner was away this weekend, he stayed overnight on the Friday. He was very down, much more than normal, and didn't want to talk. I thought no more of it and he finished the weekend at his Father's.
Later his father phoned me up to say that Luke had taken some mercury. MERCURY??? we thought he was making it up, after all, where would he have got it from? Even so, I was worried and phoned the Unit. He admitted it, and said that he had got it from our shed. An old thermometre? I don't know. This is after last time, when he took MY tablets and took them all.
I love him so much, but feel that I just can't trust him any more and feel that he's abused my love, support and everything else my partner and I do for him. The worse thing is that my partner has now told him that he's not welcome around here any more. Luckily at A&E they told him that the way he took it (drinking) means it would go straight through him. I'm not sure if I entirely believe that.
My head is a mess and don't know what to think or do. Do I leave him alone? Get in touch?....I've spoken to staff and told them that I have had enough of it all.
They've swapped his medication around so much, he must have tried everything in the book, and has had around five different doctors so far.
Thanks for reading - I just feel so hopeless and useless - all my caring hasn't done a thing for my son and obviously means nothing to him.