i am a main carer who is disabled with lunge and spine issues i have been on antibotics 10 times since xmas over infections at the moment i have a ear infection and cannot really hear much , i have been with her for 24 years and supported her through out bd crises all though beening hit kicked and abused i suffer with reactive depression we used to help each other out but since 2016 she does not or wont help with tasks around the home , she wont take medical advice from proffessionals over weight , sleep apena , she eats durning the night , no matter what advice i give her she wont listern ,she wont take advice over sex either when i ask her what she wants to do she says sex knookie . i am totally fed up with doing everything and yet my wife just gets up has breakfast wash goes back to bed every day , she wont help to walk the dog or help in the garden all though she whats things to look nice ,i have to watch close when she is cooking as things can catch fire .i cant even look after my self , i cant relax , i am unable to find support all though i have been to adult social care , health in mind , dr , hospital , mental health , counsiling , i just dont know what to do any more i said to my wife that i might as well die as i am so depressed sorry
