One thing that frustrates me more than anything else
Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2022 6:58 am
I often make mistakes. Like I have forgotten my keys a few times in the past. Sometimes I lose things. Generally I just forget things sometimes. I have cerebral palsy, and fetal alcohol syndrome. Sometimes I will also space out. I have had seizures in the past. But almost every time I do something wrong my roommate asks me tons of questions, and constantly hounds me about it until I flip out and run into the bathroom because I can not stand it. I don’t have all the answers he wants. So I can’t deal with it. I don’t know why I forget things. I don’t know why I **** up. I just wish he would stop. The problem is it reminds me exactly of how my abusive aunt was. No matter what I was never good enough. I screwed up and it was always I was a bad child, or I was crazy, or I was a hypochondriac. And it’s not like I misbehave anymore. I am 29 years old. I know he means well and he has never put me down. But he doesn’t even seem to notice when I am on the verge of a panic attack. And my aunt simply didn’t give a shit that she gave me panic attacks. But I wish when I told him to leave me alone he just would. Give me a few minutes to calm down and collect myself. But it is like he needs the answers right away. He needs to know where everything is. He needs to know right away if I did this or that. Or if I remembered to call the doctor, or make an appointment. I am an adult. And despite the fact that I have memory issues I have reminders in my phone for those things. And I don’t need a father, or a mother. I get that he cares about me but I am under so much stress right now. I live in Seattle and everything is crazy here. Homeless are everywhere, and I have to be careful after dark. And people here are sick. I am seriously thinking of moving, but it is just not financially easy. My family is full off asshats. So I can’t exactly rely on them to help. Anyways how has everyone else been coping? What frustrates you the most?