Welcome Crispyc, glad you've found us.
First posting is so difficult, some of us do a brief outline others more detailed because need immediate support and that's really how it carrys on
"Roll Call" is a good place to get to know some of us as it's like a daily diary of what things we're up to - personally I rarely contribute (I often don't get online til the evening) but read it most days.
Not sure where you originally posted but just wanted to mention that there is a mental health thread further down the board index.
Look forward to seeing your posts, you're not alone and there's always someone on the forum.
...........trying to control what is possible and learning what isn't.